In blogging, friends, letters, personal, quote on
2 November 2008 with 58 comments
It’s strange reading your blog lately – you seem to be in such a different world, such a different state of mind than me. It’s kind of a nostalgic, vacationing vibe, like there’s infinite time to think about that tiny leaf on the end of a fern frond – no, not the littlest one at the end (all proud because of its important location) but the fifth one in on the left, ignored for no good reason by everyone else throughout history. But it’s not your writing – everything seems different, skewed, changing, because I have few consistent relationships with people.
I adore and cherish each long letter I recieve. Somehow they always seem a labor of love. Every one of them. From one of my oldest and dearest friends, I thought it was too great not to reflect on it a bit…as he so eloquently called out my navel gazing.
In Uncategorized on
29 October 2008 with 345 comments
“When we least expect it, life sets us a challenge to test our courage and willingness to change; at such a moment, there is no point in pretending that nothing has happened or in saying that we are not ready. The challenge will not wait. Life does not look back. A week is more than enough time for us to decide whether or not to accept our destiny.”
Paulo Coehlo
(Reading the Alchemist in hopes of gaining some inspiration for this current juncture in my life. )
In neuva york, travel on
29 October 2008 with 108 comments
…and no responsibilities.
Where would you go?
I’m starting to think that opportunties like this don’t happen that often in a lifetime and when they do most people are usually too complacent to take advantage of them.
In philosophy, quote, writers on
23 October 2008 with 57 comments
I said to my soul, be still, and wait without hope
For hope would be hope for the wrong thing; wait without love,
For love would be love of the wrong thing; there is yet faith
But the faith and the love and the hope are all in the waiting.
Wait without thought, for you are not ready for thought;
So the darkness shall be the light, and the stillness the dancing.
t.s. Elliot of course
The Four Quartets
In found things, personal, quote on
22 October 2008 with 73 comments
As the stock markets came crashing down, a different kind of global devastation received scant notice. The World Conservation Congress revealed that 25 percent of the planet’s mammal species and one out of eight birds are on close to extinction. We’re not just talking about exotic animals in remote hideaways, but rabbits and deer and cardinals and turtledoves. As you meditate on how to reinvent yourself in the wake of the financial shifts, Cancerian, please hold a vigil in your heart for the endangered creatures. The two crises are related, after all. The greed to turn everything into a means of generating money has led humans to both despoil nature and risk the crazy gambles that have savaged the economy. The more you understand that, the better your intuition will be as you make personal decisions affecting your future relationship with money.
(via freewillastrology)
sometimes in that crazy good way, it feels like the universe is speaking to you…even if you don’t really believe in all that.
In People, neuva york, personal on
22 October 2008 with 16 comments
I’ve been meeting a lot of interesting people these past few weeks of looking for a place.
- a writer and a prop stylist (meg and i combined??)
- two upright bassist
- one actor
- ten kids with unsure job titles who live in a commune
- one recently broken up guy who kept talking about his girlfriend’s stuff
- drank twice with prospective roommates
- someone registered on couch surfing dot com
- a handful of photographers and graphic designers
- and one owner of a plus sized modeling company (of the girly mag variety)
Needless to day, as it draws closer to the wire, my standards have dropped considerably. Hey Mr. Plus Sized Model Company, is that room still open? I’ve made a simple math formula to help everyone understand what the search is like: Where A is the amount of cool people and B is the coolness of the apartment and C is the weird people and D is the weird apartment.
- A+B=no chance in hell.
- A+D=some chance but not likely.
- C+B=lots of chance but do you really want to.
- C+D=an apartment offer on the spot.
In Writing, personal, philosophy on
21 October 2008 with 28 comments
The most important thing you have, the one thing you want the most, its already in you.
I was writing tonight, and not just writing, writing without effort, writing without thought. Writing from some place in me that just needed to sit down and put it down on paper. Its been a while since I wasn’t “trying to write” and was actually writing. The same way you breathe, because its whats necessary to survive.
We’ll see where these next few weeks takes me.
In letters, personal on
21 October 2008 with 54 comments
I’m kind of in love with the concept of FutureMe.org, an internet time capsule of sorts where you send a letter to yourself at a pre-decided time in the future, the clock automatically set to one year. I read through a bunch of the letters on the site, some ranging from one liners like “I’m sitting here drinking a beer, life is good.” to the more reflective letters, people wandering where they’ll be in the future, people talking about where they are now, people warning themselves against certain courses of actions.
A friend and I were having a conversation recently of the not so original variety, musing on what we’d tell our past selves. I’m a bit more intrigued by what we’d tell our future self and what that older and hopefully wiser self would think of that advice.
I suppose I would tell my future self to take advantage of this opportunity, this time in my life that’s so open to possibility. Yes, its frightening and yes it’ll take a lot of work, but now might be one of the last times in my life where I can literally go any way I choose. I have fewer responsibilities than I’ve ever had in the past and I can reinvent myself, whether that means considering a big move or just choosing a new career path. Matter of fact maybe I’ll go write that letter now…
futureme.org
In quote on
21 October 2008 with 13 comments
“It is precisely when the ground is pulled away and we plummet that we may suddenly sense a truth outside our normal way of seeing, and realize that the fixed values that used to be the whole story and formerly defined our own position are simply the objective correlative of a subjective stance that our own finite understanding has determined, and that has therefore cut us off from something that can never be determined.”
– Karlfried Durckheim
(via whiskey river)
In culture, found things on
16 October 2008 with 7 comments
Ok. You won. I finally listened. And yes, I absolutely loved it.
I’m not sure how to describe This American Life, Ira Glass’ radio show that was around a full decade before I started seeing his defaced posters in subways. I had no idea what the premise was so for the record showtime, those ads weren’t very effective. So from wikipedia: “Primarily a journalistic non-fiction program, it has also featured essays, memoirs, field recordings, short fiction, and found footage.”
All I know is that its wonderful. Funny and moving at times. Insightful. Powerful. Truthful. I’d love to attempt to find as many other adjectives ending in ‘ful’ as I can think of, but I think I’m going to listen to the Babysitting episode instead.
